Down 2.8!

YES!  Success for another week.  After an iffy Sunday, I was happy to see, and be able to report back to you, that you can have one "mess up" day with WW and STILL lose weight!  Because I didn't keep track of points at all on Sunday and I'm still down 2.8 for the week!  That brings my total to 10.8 pounds in two weeks, or 46.2 down since I started this last time...which was a while ago...

Baby steps!  That's the important thing for me to remember.  I have noticed this time that I am much more aware of what I am putting in my mouth.  The other day, yesterday I guess it was, when I had my little stressful day, I took two pieces of candy and set them on the counter.  I picked up the first one to eat it and thought to myself, "What are you doing?  You don't even WANT that candy.  Put it away!" and I did!  So, yay me!  Every day, every meal, every bite is a lesson.  A lesson in willpower...a lesson in perseverance...a lesson in who I am as a person, and not just a number on the scale.  I am so so proud of those numbers that I am finding each week.  And I will continue to be proud of those numbers, but it's even more than that!  It's the things that make me want to do this.  What makes me want to lose weight?  I made a list...have you ever (if you have weight to lose) OR with ANY task?  Make a list about WHY you are doing what you are doing.  To sit down and write out your purpose is an awe-inspiring thing.  SO, if you are feeling like you want to lose weight, or get healthier, or start exercising, list out why!  Here's mine:

- To stay alive for my children.  I can't imagine leaving my girls behind, knowing that they already lost one parent.  I don't want to die and leave my children orphans.

-To be able to walk into any department store and know that I will be able to find at least one thing that will fit me.

-To be able to try on bracelets and necklaces and not have that last-minute panic that they're not going to fit.

-To be able to keep up with my friends on walks and not feel like I'm sucking away all the oxygen in the universe.

-To be able to go to an amusement park and not have anxiety about fitting on the roller coaster.

-To be able to move freely and gracefully (not sure this will EVER happen for me, no matter what size I am since I'm constantly tripping or falling over something)

-To join a volleyball team

-To run a 5K, and then a 10K

-To have more energy

-To be able to put my socks and shoes on without feeling like I'm in a cattle roping competition

-To be able to know there is any activity I will be able to do

-To feel prettier

-To gain confidence

-To enjoy life

This is just a partial list...there are 100 more things that I would put on here, and many things that were on the list when I started at 360 pounds that I've already gotten to check off!  So, if you are wanting to start and needing some motivation, make your list!  I'd love to see what other people add to theirs because maybe there are other people that just want to shave their legs without feeling like you're completing a triathlon.  Or maybe there's one other person in the world that would like to walk without feeling like your thighs are applauding you!  Reach out to each other for support!  Work to reach your goals!  I know that blogging has certainly helped focus me.  Like I ate some cookies just now, and I was going to open another container and eat some more...or I'm thinking of the french fries that are still on Amelia's plate from dinner.  BUT, because I'm blogging and thinking about you all reading about my binge, the french fries will go in the fridge for my kids for later...and the cookie package will remain in the fridge!  So, THANK YOU!

FOOD FOR THE DAY:
Breakfast: One cookie that I found in the staff room at work...Grrr....

Lunch: Turkey sandwich with miracle whip and mustard, BBQ Popchips, satsumas, and pineapple

Dinner: Two Whopper, Jrs, small onion ring, a few fries

Dessert: Mini chocolate chip shortbread cookies

I'm planning on cooking something for dinner tomorrow, I think...I still have like half a pig in my fridge from football Sunday, but it might be time to move on from that for now.  We'll see how I feel after work tomorrow!! :)